From what I’ve heard about culture shock, is that you typically switch over from the ‘honeymoon’ (everything is awesome and fun and cute) to the next stage around week three.
The next stage is where you start getting a bit homesick and being more aware of all the differences.
I think I’m there already. I hope this isn’t a bad sign.
I want to like it here…but I feel like my mood is going up and down in waves. I’ll be alright for a bit and then I’ll be like this.
I want to be able to communicate with people and to be understood. I want to be able to read what the hell it says on all the buildings and signs. I don’t want people staring at me all the damn time.
I honestly feel kind of like I’m losing myself. I feel like I don’t even recognize myself in the mirror anymore and that my confidence is definitely wavering. And I don’t like this.
I miss my friends and family and I heard that my grandma was actually admitted into the hospital a few days ago (apparently she’s been released also) and my grandpa was put into a nursing home. And that car guy (mentioned on and off throughout the last month) is back and sending me antagonizing emails.
Culture Shock 101:
Pretty sure I mentioned it (but maybe not–I’ve been updating here and on FB, so I sort of lose track) but I found a few trips that I want to do coming up.
The first one is this coming weekend and it’s a snowboarding/skiing trip. I haven’t been skiing since I was..10?
Anyway, I think it’ll be really fun and hopefully it’ll be something that can pull me out of this weird funk.
Also. I wish I could fit my American-sized feet into the shoes over here. Really cute shoes but all too small for me. 😦
Clothes are also kind of strange.
I think I might end up with a scarf addiction while I’m here. (And hot chocolate).
Speaking of scarves…I just bought one today 🙂
Maybe I’ll be able to find scarves when I make it out to Seoul. Or another country nearby. Perhaps Thailand?