Goodbyes and Packing Up

Packing is actually going surprisingly well.  I think I have a system (which I’ve noticed this in the past too) that I’ll pack once and then re-pack and adjust that first round by taking stuff out and tweaking it.  Might sound like a waste of time, but it works for me.
I currently have one large suitcase and one smaller one (carry-on size), and I’m checking online to verify how many I’m allowed.  Double-checking anyway.  The suitcases are both pretty full currently, and I honestly wouldn’t mind paying the extra for an extra checked bag so I can make sure I have enough room to bring stuff back.  I just started with my tweaking round of packing, so maybe I’ll be able to trim enough stuff out that I don’t have a need for a second bag..
I also feel the need to bring my rainboots. ha.  I’m sure I’m being stubborn, but I’ve heard it rains a ton there, and my feet are a bit bigger than the average female’s, so I’m assuming I’d be hard pressed to find them there.
ALLLLSOOO…not too thrilled to be leaving our lovely 60 degree (WOW!! :-D) temps for the more realistic 20-degree (and snowy) temps of Daejeon.  😛

Anyway, I’m also moving tomorrow.  It’s pretty late here and I’ve been doing stuff pretty much since 9am yesterday morning…so I’m exhausted, but I really do want to knock out as much of this as I can before morning hits.  That way I can move, clean and just be done with it all.  Then I can sleep.

Also tonight, I went to a friend’s house and we had chocolate fondue night–yum!  Which also happened to be my last time seeing a bunch of my friends for the next year.  That’s basically what this whole last week has been.  Cramming in visits with everyone I possibly can all while trying to wrap things up around here.  (And deal with car dude…)  It’s really weird to think that I won’t see these people for a year.  I’m just trying not to think about it though.  I know the year will fly by, and I just make myself sad by thinking about how long it’ll be.
I’m so incredibly grateful that I live in a time (and country) that allows me to even do what I’m going to be doing.  And thankfully, I’m surrounded by different forms of social media and things like Skype, which all help bring the edges of the Earth a little bit closer together.
I’m also incredibly blessed to have the family and friends that I do.  Always there.  100%.  Supporting and cheering me on.

And of course, to have the opportunity to do something like this is really incredible.
But the thing is, the opportunities are there for most people.  You just have to have your eyes open and be ready to jump when it appears.  And work your frikin ass off for it.

But it’s worth it.  Oh so worth it.

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Edit: I was driving home from the fondue thing tonight and it’s really interesting how differently you see things when  you know you’re about to leave.  It’s kind of hard to describe, but it feels like everything has a glaze over it.
I feel…I can’t think of the best word choice right now, but as I’m driving down the road, I see things in a different light.  Or when I’m spending time with friends, I cherish it more.
I guess I could (unwillingly) compare it to how someone might feel about life once they’ve been told they only have a limited amount of time left to live.
I feel weird describing it like that, but if you’ve never moved away before, I feel like that would be the most similar sort of feeling.

Also, I’d like to note that I’m feeling more excited about going now.  It seriously depends on the day (or hour) on how I feel on the subject, but I’ve felt more positive about it recently.  I’m assuming that’s because car guy is letting up (kinda..only got 2 emails today) and that allows me to focus on the here and now. And allows me to actually get excited about this.  I’m making a promise to myself now not to let that guy get to me.  He can’t rob these last few days from me.
Anyway, back to packing.  Hopefully to bed soon.  It’s been a long (and productive) day.
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My Friday (2/17)–Snapshot
*Up at 9am–baked brownies (brownie bites) for fondue night
*Go to Mom’s house: drop off stuff to be shredded and extra shampoos/lotions/etc.  Stuff that probably won’t do well in a storage unit for a year and do laundry
*Get more boxes from grocery store (free apple boxes :-D)
*Go to Mom’s work–complete a Power of Attorney and copy important documents
*Fondue night with the ladies at 9pm! 😀
*Pack!!!!!  (Where this entry originally starts off)

VISA!!!!!!!

MY VISA HAS ARRIVED!!!!
AHHHH!!!! So so happy!! It didn’t get lost in the mail! yay! haha.
After months of hurry up and wait and lots of paperwork, time and money…it’s here!  And I can officially work in the Republic of Korea!!! 😀

So, my paperwork is now officially complete except for waiting for that second background check!  Which, I can still work and do everything now that I have the visa, but the Korean Education Dept. decided this year that they also would like copies of the background check…so now all new entrants (ie: me) need to get that second copy.
I already sent off for it and it takes a few months, so..in my mind, I’m finished with paperwork 🙂  YESSS!!

Have had a rough few days at work recently…just feeling overworked/underpaid and stressed out over how much there is be done.

Anyway, getting pretty excited to see what Korea has to offer.  Bring it!  😀

It’s Becoming Real…and Hey, Who Needs Sleep Anyway?

19 days.

Breathe in.  Breathe Out.

You can do this.

Repeat.

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I’ve had another one of those moments (now that I’ve hit the teens portion of my countdown) where I sort of get a slap of reality.  This is actually happening.  In 19 days, (well 20 with the super long flight, ha) my world is going to be rocked…and rocked hard.
I keep telling myself that I’m ready and that I can do this…but honestly, I’m terrified out of my mind.
I feel like I know nothing of Korean culture except for bits and pieces that I’ve picked up while reading online.  There are a lot of days where I also feel homesick…and I haven’t even left yet.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m still excited for this and to experience everything that’s coming my way…it’s just…I’m just so nervous.  What if I’m terrible at teaching?  What if I hate it?

Still…it could be absolutely amazing, and that’s what I trying to tell myself.
I know I like kids and I’m typically a grammar nazi anyway.  I love travel and experiencing new things.  I love the teaching/training aspect of my current job and being able to see changes and results…especially if they happen to be as a result of something I’ve done or said.
This whole thing is just overwhelming.  Not to mention that I still feel like I have a massive amount of stuff to get done here.  I feel so pressed for time.  Trying to squeeze in as many visits and lunches and dinners with friends  and family as I can possibly manage.  Trying to knock out my to-do list and keep sane also while working 40 hours a week.
I should have asked for a full two weeks off work before I leave.  That last week and a half is going to be gone before I know it.

Ah well.  One day at a time.  That’s all I have control over.  One day at a time.

If this post sounds hurried or frantic at all, that’s probably because that’s the rate that my brain has been firing at for oh…the past few months or so.

Again…

Breathe in.  Breathe out.  Repeat.

You can do this.

Breathe in…breathe out…

Repeat.

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One last bit before I head to bed…
New plan for the car.  I was toying with the idea (per friend’s suggestions) of mentioning to the potential buyer of my car that I need to hold onto it til xx day.  That way I wouldn’t be without a car.
However, I’ve decided to go ahead and pay for a rental instead.  My brother actually works for Enterprise and can hook me up with a deal for that…and honestly, the idea of holding out on closing out the sale on my car adds to my stress.  What if they change their mind last minute?  etc. etc.  I’ll gladly pay the extra for the peace of mind.
Once it’s sold, it’s done.  I can pay off my car payment and just be done with it all.

Also, expecting my visa in the mail tomorrow.  *fingers crossed that it arrives safely*

100!

Yayyyy!! (and wow!)  I hit 100 views 🙂
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I should make a list for how many things I’ve bought/needed to buy for this as well..similar to the To-Do-List-of-Epic-Proportions…
Anyway, just bought a CD/DVD case to store some of my movies that I plan on bringing over with me.  Definitely not going to squeeze in a bunch of cases, so this will do.
Also bought an external hard-drive for my laptop.  I need to get all the music files and pictures off my PC so I can put them on my laptop.  Hopefully I can get this done at some point tonight…

My mom and brother said they’ll take my computer desk off my hands too, which is wonderful 🙂  Good for them and good for me.

Visa still hasn’t arrived…starting to get nervous…
I’ll call them Monday if it’s not here by then :-/

Having a mini-going away party/shin-dig tomorrow with some friends.  Not really a party though because I’m terrible at hosting that sort of thing, and because it’s a lot of effort to organize something when I’m already so overwhelmed (and exhausted) with other stuff.  Just going ice skating and out for dinner/drinks/etc.

My last day of work on the 11th can’t seem to get here fast enough.  I’m just so worn down.  I’ll be really glad to get the extra 40 hours put back into my week…

And you’ll have to excuse the scatterbrained-ness of my posts…my head seems to be in 4000 places at once, and it’s nice to be able to cover everything just like this.  Nice quick updates. 🙂 ha.
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Today:
worked 7-4
errands til now–6pm  (Goodwill, Target, Bestbuy)
make dinner
work on switching over files
re-do unit 8 from my TEFL course–messed up a few sections..ugh.
RELAX.  I hope.  I feel like the circles under my eyes are becoming a permanent fixture.  lol.

Tomorrow:
Kickboxing in the AM
Go to Starbucks or the like and work on TEFL Unit 9
Out with friends for my going-away thing

Sunday:
Work 12-8:30

Monday
Work 7-4
Call on Visa?!?!?! 😦
Workout class with Groupon
Dinner//TEFL Unit 9 (if not complete)

Also need to get that car lock fixed at some point…

No one said it would be easy. Just that it would be worth it in the end.

Keep on keepin’ on.