In Memory

I just realized yesterday, that the anniversary of my dad’s passing was on December 8.  I remembered in the days leading up, but I guess I just got busy or something. :-/
I…I feel a bit like I’m forgetting him as the time goes on and I’m terrified of what that’s going to be like in 10…20…years from now.  I still remember certain memories but a lot of it seems to be fading, even though I do have pictures around my apartment.  Is this normal?  How can you start to forget your own parent??  Not forgetting that they exist…but it’s now been seven years since he died and it feels like a lifetime ago already.  Maybe not even forgetting…everything just feels further away or a bit more fuzzy and distant.
I also used to feel like he was close to me and watching over or something, but I don’t have that feeling anymore.

I know this is a personal post, but I wanted to get it out and hopefully I’m not alone in this.  :-/

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